That you will not believe

It is the lie in my truth

The hatred in my love

The scream in my silence

The pride in my humility

The nothingness in my substance

The black in my white

The laughter  in my tears

The despair  in my hope

The winter  in my spring

That you do not believe

That you cannot see

And thus it’s not me whom you love

You love her what I used to be

No, nobody is to be blamed

It’s just between me and time

But this truth is a truth

That u do not believe

That you cannot see…

I live with u in a palace with broken walls

The plaster and velvet curtains

Have hid them so well

That you are only charmed

By its magnificence

I can tell you but I cannot show you

That disillusion in your eyes I fear

And when I hint it in conversations

You laugh and embrace me

It is the pain of this betrayal

That you do not believe

That u cannot see..

So I will live with it and you

And dread that day

When the curtains will fade

And the plaster will peal

That you will see the real

And you will loathe the traces of my shadow

 I know I will love you that day

With all that is left of my heart

But that day my love

It will become a little truth

That you will not believe

That you will never see.